Phew..this is the end of the week...I am sad, but yet relieved.

Sad because time flies...sad because there are still sooo much to do and yet I didn't get a lot done, and to add salt to the wound, more work coming, piling up. I don't know when would I ever finish those difficult calculations.. I was telling Jason, I am counting all mortality rates everyday, and probably by the end of the day, I am soo tired that I die earlier..or maybe one day I should actually count my own...Jason said his motarlity rate would be low, he doesn't smoke, he doesn't drive fast, healthy life..bla bla bla..and I am predicting that mine would be faster, even I am a female (statistically, female has lower mortality rate compared to male). And those endless cleaning up...I never understand why I end up cleaning the house every now and then, why I end up trying to get myself organised every day....I sort of spend some time filing my stuff, cleaning my room, clearing up the living room, laundry, cook, clean the kitchen..all the chores....I really wished I have a kakak here...Despite of all these...I still make mooncake (don't even understand why I did it, even I am soo busy).

But I am glad it is over. I am hoping that tomorrow, when the new week starts, I have a nice and wonderful week ahead...This week, I have been worrying shit...worrying about a depressed friend..worrying that he falls tooo deep into depression...tried to help him, but he sort of refused to be helped... I am also concerned about a friend who is eating less and less. I am worried that he will end up Anorexic, which I don't want it to happen. Having a friend last time who used to be one, is hard enough, crying and going through all that...if there is another friend who end up like that, I don't think I could even pull through all the emotional stress... and I had a mid sem test last week and I don't think I could even score full marks...Spent too much time worrying about other people that I wished I could stop that and start to worry about myself...By the end of the week, I thought everything is over, I start to care about another friend who has lost her self-confidence...who has tried to run away from her worse fear...who has been trying to fool herself by thinking that she will fool the whole world...I hope she is feeling much more motivated after all the scolding and insight of what I thought...Well, and having other friends who are facing some friendships crisis....trying to help them, but there seems that I cannot do much....all I could do is to listen and to give insight of how to cope with it...it is still up to them to work it out! There are more.....but yeah....I guess everyone has their ups and downs

Well...I am sooo exhausted....but anyway, I pray that all my friends....that they could cope with all the challenges, that God give them all the strength they need to continue with their daily lives. I can't expect everyone to be trouble-free, but at least, they would be able to grow from the problems, be stronger, and be able to see the wonderful and beautiful things in life. May God be with them and grow with them.